Another April and its time to write again. In part I’m more self aware. I observe more of myself. I notice the things that wind me up. I spot the patterns I repeat. I feel more different. And yet also more kind to myself. Getting my head or my environment organised is not me beingContinue reading “Autism acceptance”
3 years on, from 2 years on. How life is changing.
I didn’t anticipate writing on this subject and yet, somewhere in my subconscious, the impending anniversary has been quietly making itself known and now a post feels inevitable. Somewhere along the way I stopped shouting and started accepting. Praying that well known prayer, about accepting things we can’t change and courage to change the thingsContinue reading “3 years on, from 2 years on. How life is changing.”
I am hurt and I am hope. Reflections on a life lived undiagnosed #ActuallyAutistic.
via I am hurt and I am hope. Reflections on a life lived undiagnosed #ActuallyAutistic. I found this so helpful and relatable …. I’ve rarely retreated … continually pushing to try to “get it right” desperately confused as to why my last brainwave hasn’t worked – again. And learning slowly to accept that with someContinue reading “I am hurt and I am hope. Reflections on a life lived undiagnosed #ActuallyAutistic.”
Discovery post diagnosis
I’ve been reading a positive list of traits … it’s much easier to see my challenges are also strengths … So attention to detail, passion for justice, loyalty…. these are all important to me. But not knowing what I’m missing. Not understanding how I’m coming across . Feeling insecure because I don’t know what peopleContinue reading “Discovery post diagnosis”
What’s me? What’s others?
The last few weeks I’ve been getti g feedback on how I come across from people I trust. One friend from church has said I’m difficult, aggressive and that people will pull away from fear of criticism . This is obviously hard to hear, but I’m trying to investigate this and work on it. But peopleContinue reading “What’s me? What’s others?”
Reflections after a year.
So nearly a year on from diagnosis I’m mostly glad and grateful. Things make more sense. I understand myself better. I have hope for change. And yet there’s still a loss. A sense of not being able to turn the clock back. Of feeling like I can no longer pretend I’m “normal”. Of course IContinue reading “Reflections after a year.”
The making of a soup
Yesterday I received my formal diagnosis: autism spectrum disorder … Or Asperger’s syndrome. As as a family we’ve joked about the possibility of me being an “asparagus” and yet I feared I was making a fuss about nothing and just needed to get on with life. But the challenges of frequently feeling “out of step”Continue reading “The making of a soup”
Asparagus Soup 